my blog bores me... haha.
It's August and I don't have a lot of students... They are all on vacation. When I think about it, going to work is all I do. It's been quite a while since I have had a really intellectual conversation with someone over coffee and smokes. I've done that with some of my colleagues though... Meg and Mylene... but sometimes we're just too tired after our shift to really go on and on just talking.
Lately, all eveyrone else talks about is work. I have no complaints... it's just really different for me.
My friend invited me to her son's 1st birthday next month. I'm thinking I won't go. Not really in the mood to see the people from "before". God. Am I really like this? Out with the old, in with the new type of person? I guess so... I can honestly say, I don't miss them. I value our friendships more than ever but I can't say I'm pining over them. I'm done. I feel like I'm going through changes now, although seemingly none of them drastic.
Right now, I can say I am definitely alone. I have nobody to tell my problems to, because I'm not the type who'd just open up to anybody. Not just my problems... My thoughts. Well, no problem, there. I still think about things although I really miss writing in my journal. The other day I was watching an episode from the last season of Felicity (got the DVDs! Yay!) and I found myself practically bawling in tears. At first I thought, "It's a damn show!" But then I realized it has been quite a while since I've had a cathartic moment like that. I guess that was the reason why I just let the tears flow.
I can't say I'm miserable right now. After a year of "bumhood" it's actually nice, doing something for a change. It's also a perfect excuse not to see anyone I don't want to see. Haha. Distraction.
